It's almost the middle of December.
I'm sitting here at the table while Ania is doing pattern blocks and I'm here typing away. This is homeschooling in a nutshell. The balance of motherhood, teaching, homemaking and business owning.
Truthfully? It is not easy.
One of the biggest misconceptions people think about being home with your child is that it's a free ride. HA! Like anything in motherhood is free. Sure, I get to be home and people glorify that aspect: HOME. You hold onto that part "you're home though!! you get to stay home!"
*cue tears, actual tears as I'm typing this*
Deep breath in - yes, I get to stay home.
And I love it. I was made for motherhood and I'm an exceptional mother (truly, I am). Staying home though, isn't the easy part. It's the hard part. Take a big 'ol house, filled with 4 people, 2 dogs and a cat. Two of these adults work full time, one is 83 years old and well, I'm not going to be asking him to scrub the floors. Add in extra curricular activities, and by the time my wife is actually able to help me around the house during the week its 7pm and our little is sleeping. It's limited.
So you have this house, with a mom who stays home and the brunt of the responsibility is left on. Add in clutter triggering my anxiety and OCD, I TAKE it upon myself to ensure the house is *somewhat* tidy and clean on a constant basis.
Now adding in homeschool.
It is not for the faint.
Here's what I've learned what works for us
I don't want you to shy away from homeschool. It is one of the most amazing things we have ever done. My little is HAPPY. Actually happy, joyous and her anxiety is not a daily concern anymore.
One of my main motivators was her mental health: she was slowly dwindling into a dark space where she was not happy, thriving or bubbly. After removing her from school her light soul has come back. She's who she's always been before she disappeared.
That makes everything worth it. And I would choose to do this all over again.
You see, I would rather exhaust myself daily throwing myself into something I'm not sure I'm ready for than have her suffer another second in a public school that is failing her mental health.
So here's to the mama's doing it all day in and day out.
The ones doing it with ease and grace (just kidding).
The ones who have sacrificed so much to create the best environment and childhood for their littles.
I see you.
Informed consent and homeschooling mama, sharing her way through life.